I am absolutely not happy today. To be honest, I went to sleep last night really angry because of something at work. I work for my father's company. Some people might think that because I work for my father's company, I have it easy.
Let me just say this:
1) You do not know my father.
2) You obviously have not worked in what is commonly known as a family business.
My particular environment is quite peculiar. While I am the daughter, I am expected to be the best possible employee, but I am also expected to act like I am just an employee. Yep. There are no special privileges here. We have all the responsibility without the pay nor the praise. We are expected to be the best that every minor error is repugnant enough for you to be called unworthy. The line is the same: "Naturingan ka pa man ding anak ng may-ari." Every mistake, even if its just that you failed to come in a minute earlier, you become the cause of the ultimate demise of the organization.
For someone's sanity, it is truly unhealthy to work for your family business, especially if it is small enough for you to feel that way. I often wish that I just be fired. In that way, I am not abandoning my father. Yes, there is that other angle. They always say that you are just an employee. But the moment you act like any employee would, you become the prodigal child.
They always tell you to separate the professional from the personal--but every mistake you make is taken as a character flaw.
Note to "family" business owners: Everything is personal. Everything will always be personal. Stop pretending that it is not.
(Sorry for this rant. I am supposed to be finding reasons to be happy everyday. But it gets tiring when things around you are always pushing you down.)
But let me say this: I am happy today that I have this venue to vent. Because I need it. Today, I am happy that I can blog about this.
So what made you happy today?
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